I won’t pretend I have the answers,
For You know how clueless I am.
I’ll just keep holding my arm out,
Letting you lead me by the hand.

I won’t pretend that I’m not hurting while
I’m living through sorrow and doubt…
But I will keep coming to you,
While life is so hard to figure out.

I won’t find another substitute to make
Myself feel better for a little while…
I will continue to lay myself at your feet
I will not let myself live in denial.

I will keep hoping though everything
In life sometimes seems full of despair…
I’ll keep asking You to come and act,
I’ll keep giving You every care.

Though things may spiral downward,
And loneliness is always near,
I’ll keep holding onto hope in You…
I’ll keep trying to let go of fear.

Though I’m told by others, and often myself
That it’s foolish to trust in You…
I’ll remember the truth of Your Word,
And that I’m nothing without You.

And though your children may continue to hate,
Though they bring no comfort, hope, or peace,
Though they may keep tearing down Your works,
I’ll trust in You for both mine and their release.

Though it seems today that Your followers
Are spreading nothing but disunity and hate,
I’ll still pray for them--myself, included-
Because I know with You, it’s never too late.

Even when there are days I feel a very little piece
Of what Job felt years ago…..
I will keep hoping in You, My Lord,
You’re the Only One who really knows.

Though I come to you empty-handed
With nothing at all but myself to give,
I’ll keep waiting on you to deliver me,
For it’s because of You that I live.

J.N.S. 07-04-09

Six years ago my life changed.

My husband and I became one. On that day, I never believed I had any room left to love him any more than I already did.....but I was mistaken. I love him more today than I did then. He makes me laugh. He loves me so intensely, so whole-heartedly, so lovely. He loves me not with just mere words....but with his very being, his whole self. He loves me even when I am not so lovely to him. My heart is so full, so satisfied with this man that God gave me. We wake up everyday, and enjoy our marriage, our family. Life has brought many heartaches, beyond our control....especially over the last year and a half in dealing with The Great Sadness. He has been my soft place to land when I needed comfort and encouragement....when I needed someone to just hear me cry. I LOVE YOU, Darryl. I have many nicknames for you. But my favorite one is "My Love."

Ephesians 5:25 reads: "Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church and gave Himself up for her"

This man has loved me in such a way, everyday, without question. My Momma loved him so much for a reason. My Daddy told me when we first started dating that he'd been praying that God would send me my husband, and that he'd be a godly man. Thanks, Daddy. Your prayers were heard.

Happy anniversary, My Love. Loving you comes so easily.