SOME HONESTY.

YOU SAID YOU’D ALWAYS BE HERE,
SO WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE YOU’RE GONE?
I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU TO COME BACK AGAIN,
FOR SO LONG-YET I’M STILL ALONE.

MY HEART, MY SOUL, LONGS FOR A CHANGE,
FOR GOOD NEWS TO TRAVEL HERE.
I LONG TO HEAR A JOYFUL NOISE
COME SWIFTLY TO MY EARS.

I SEE THE WIND CHANGING,
HOW I WISH IT WOULD CHANGE FOR ME-
I HOPE, I PRAY, I YEARN
FOR EVEN ONE YEAR OF JUBILEE.

LIFE LOOKS SO HOPELESS RIGHT NOW,
AS IF NOTHING WILL BE GOOD.
HOW I WISH YOU’D COME BACK
AND REDEEM THIS PLACE, AS YOU SAID YOU WOULD.

THERE IS NO ANSWER NOW, I KNOW.
I WILL NEVER FIND ONE HERE.
BUT I JUST WISH I COULD FEEL
YOUR SWEET PRESENCE DRAWING NEAR.

I STILL WAIT, I HOPE, I WONDER
IF THINGS WILL TAKE A TURN-
OR WILL THINGS CONTINUE
TO JUST CRASH AND BURN?

I KNOW SOMETIMES YOU DO THINGS,
REGARDLESS OF HOW WE PRAY-
SO HOW DO YOU DECIDE THOSE THINGS,
CAN’T YOU MAKE THEM GO AWAY?

BECAUSE SOMETIMES, LORD, THE PAIN-
THE GRIEF, THE HEARTACHE, AND THE SORROW
MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I REALLY DON’T
WANT TO BE HERE TOMORROW.

AND THERE ARE DAYS I DON’T KNOW
WHAT TO DO-OR EVEN WHAT TO SAY-
I JUST WANT ALL THE HURTING OF THIS
LIFE TO GO AWAY.

YOU SAID WHEN YOU WALKED HERE
“THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN IS AT HAND,”-
SO WHY CAN’T WE SEE THE GOOD SOMETIMES,
I DON’T UNDERSTAND.

ALL I CAN DO IS WAIT,
AS I’VE DONE SO MANY TIMES BEFORE-
UNTIL I SEE A GLIMPSE OF HOPE
COME THROUGH AN OPEN DOOR.

SO I WAIT HERE LISTENING TO THE WIND
BLOW GENTLY THROUGH THE TREE
AND HOPE THAT IT’S NOT TRUE-
THAT YOU’VE NEVER REALLY LEFT ME.

JESSICA SCHAFER 03-02-08