AN EMPTY, SPINNING CUP.

ON DAYS LIKE THIS I WONDER, LORD
HOW LONG WILL I BE HERE?
HOW LONG WILL I FEEL ABANDONED
AND OVERTAKEN WITH FEAR?

FEAR THAT LIFE WON’T CHANGE FOR
THE BETTER, BUT WILL ONLY STAY THE SAME.
FEAR THAT MY DREAMS WILL NOT HAPPEN,
NO MATTER HOW MUCH I CALL ON YOUR NAME.

I WONDER, LORD WHERE ARE YOU?
WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE I’M TALKING TO AIR?
ARE YOU STILL THERE, ARE YOU LISTENING?
I CAN’T FIND YOU ANYWHERE.

I’VE BEEN CRYING FOR SO LONG NOW,
MY MIND IS FILLED WITH DOUBT…
I WONDER IF YOU’LL DO SOMETHING, GOD…
WILL YOU COME AND HELP US OUT?

AN EMPTY, SPINNING, CUP AM I,
I’VE NOTHING LEFT TO GIVE ANYMORE…
I KEEP LOOKING, I KEEP WAITING FOR YOU
TO COME WALKING THROUGH MY DOOR.

I NEED YOU, LORD, EVERYDAY…
I NEED YOUR MERCY AND GRACE.
EVEN MORE WHILE I’M IN THIS DESERT…
AND IT SEEMS I’M NOWHERE NEAR YOUR FACE.

THOUGH LIFE CONTINUES TO BRING
SO MANY TRIALS, SORROWS, AND TEARS.
I’LL KEEP WAITING, I’LL KEEP HOPING,
AND I’LL KEEP HANDING YOU MY FEARS.

EVEN THOUGH IT SEEMS SO HOPELESS,
THOUGH I FEEL SO ALL ALONE…
I’LL KEEP HOLDING ON TO THE WORDS YOU SAID…
THAT THIS PLACE IS NOT MY HOME.

I WILL FOLLOW, I WILL SERVE YOU
I’LL STILL HOPE THOUGH YOU SLAY ME…
I’LL HOLD STEADFAST TO YOUR WORDS, LORD…
THOUGH ALL WILL CHANGE AROUND ME.

YOUR WORD TELLS ME YOU ARE HERE,
I WILL REMEMBER THAT EVERDAY…
THOUGH EVERYTHING AROUND ME TRIES
TO MAKE ME DOUBT YOUR WAY.

I PUT MY TRUST IN NO MAN,
MONEY IS NOT WHERE MY HOPE LIES.
I’LL KEEP RUNNING AFTER YOU, JESUS…
AND ON YOU I’LL KEEP MY EYES.

JESSICA SCHAFER September 22, 2008