MY HEART ACHES IN SUCH A WAY TODAY
A WORD TO DESCRIBE IT, I CAN’T FIND.
THE WORLD IS DIFFERENT NOW, NOT AS BRIGHT,
MOMMA…SINCE YOU LEFT US ALL BEHIND.

THERE’S SUCH AN EMPTINESS, A VOID
THAT ANOTHER WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO FILL.
I’M SO HAPPY WHEN I SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS….
THEN I WAKE UP TO WHAT’S REAL.

SOME DAYS I DON’T WANT TO GET UP AT ALL…
I JUST WANT TO PRETEND IT’S ALL A DREAM
I WANT TO TURN BACK THOSE HUGE HANDS OF TIME
I THINK THAT’D BE BETTER….SO IT SEEMS.

RAINBOWS AREN’T AS SWEET NOW,
HUGS STILL SEEM SO BARE TO ME…
THE FLOWERS AREN’T AS BEAUTIFUL
SINCE I DON’T HAVE YOU HERE WITH ME.

I SEE YOUR FACE IN EVERY PERSON
YET I SEE YOU NOWHERE.
I KEEP HOPING AND PRAYING SOMEHOW
I CAN OVERCOME THIS DESPAIR.

BUT I KNOW THAT I’LL CARRY YOU WITH ME,
JUST AS I’LL CONTINUE TO CARRY THE GRIEF.
AND I KNOW THAT AT THE END OF ALL THINGS
WE’LL BE REUNITED, AND I’LL HAVE RELIEF.

YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MANY PEOPLE YOU TOUCHED,
HOW YOU BROUGHT HOPE AND LAUGHTER TO US ALL…
MOMMA, I’LL BE MISSING YOU EVERY WINTER AND SPRING,
THROUGHOUT THE SUMMER AND THE FALL.

SO AS I PLOUGH THROUGH EACH DAY WITHOUT YOU,
THOUGH PART OF ME WILL ALWAYS BE EMPTY…
I’LL BE CARRYING A PART OF YOU AROUND,
UNTIL YOUR FACE AGAIN I SEE.

I STILL NEED MY MOMMA, I NEED YOU SO MUCH…
JUST ANY OTHER MOTHER FIGURE WON’T DO.
I’M STILL A LITTLE GIRL,
AND I’LL STILL ALWAYS NEED YOU.

JESSICA SCHAFER October 6, 2008