I John 3:18

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Sunday, March 1, 2009

I’D BEEN LOOKING AT THIS DOOR
BUT IT SEEMED TOO FAR AWAY.
I KNEW I COULD REACH IT,
BUT JUST NOT THAT DAY.

THE DOOR WAS BEAUTIFUL TO ME,
HOW I LONGED TO JUST PEEK THROUGH,
BUT LIFE KEPT HAPPENING, SO MUCH PAIN,
AND I FELT I HAD NOTHING TO CLING TO.

A LITTLE BIT OF FAILURE,
AN AWFUL LOT OF DOUBT,
A HANDFUL OF ABANDOMENT,
SO MUCH OF THIS WAS HARD TO FIGURE OUT.

I’VE GIVEN MY HEART AWAY SO MUCH
TO PEOPLE I THOUGHT WOULD EMBRACE IT,
BUT NOW I WISH I COULD GO WAY BACK
IN TIME TO JUST ERASE IT.

YET ALL THE WHILE, THIS DOOR STOOD THERE-
IN THE MIDDLE OF MY HOME,
AND I JUST KEPT ON WALKING BY
AND FEELING ALL ALONE.

I’VE SEEN MORE DEATH THAN I CAN TAKE,
I’VE SEEN TOO MANY PEOPLE HURTING,
AND ALL THE WHILE INSIDE I’M FEELING
NOTHING BUT EXTREME YEARNING.

YOU’VE SAID I NEED TO BRING IT ALL
TO YOU, BECAUSE I CAN’T HANDLE IT ALONE,
SO I DO, BUT I KEEP ON COMING BACK
BECAUSE IT FEELS LIKE SOMETIMES YOU’RE GONE.

AND THE DOOR IS STILL THERE AS
PRETTY AS BEFORE,
HOW I WISH I WOULD JUST REACH OUT
AND OPEN THAT GLORIOUS DOOR.

SO DAYS KEEP PASSING ALL THE WHILE,
AND NOW THEY’RE TURNING INTO YEARS…
ARE YOU STILL HERE FOR ME,
ARE YOU STILL SAVING ALL MY TEARS?

I DECIDED TODAY I WANT TO OPEN THAT DOOR,
THE ONE THAT IS BURSTING WITH HOPE INSIDE,
THE ONE THAT WILL KEEP ME HANGING ON
IN THIS LIFE, THE ONE FROM WHICH I CAN’T HIDE.

AND THOUGH LIFE WILL KEEP MOVING ALONG,
THOUGH THE BAD WILL STILL CREEP THROUGH,
I WILL ENTER THROUGH THIS DOOR OF HOPE,
THE ONE THAT LEADS ME STRAIGHT TO YOU.

J.N.S. March 1, 2009

2 comments:

krystle said...

that's awesome! you need to print your musings (peggy hill...haha) and make a book. hey, i'd buy it:)

Fruitfulvine2 said...

Here's a hug from a bloggy friend.