I John 3:18

All original content copyright Jessica Nicole Schafer, 2007-2016.

Saturday, February 7, 2009


TODAY WOULD’VE BEEN YOUR BIRTHDAY.
NOW IT’S A SOBERING REMINDER OF
YOUR BEAUTIFUL LIFE THAT’S ENDED HERE,
THE OUTPOURING OF ALL YOUR LOVE.

YES, THE WORLD’S STILL SPINNING.
LIFE IS STILL MOVING RIGHT ALONG.
BUT IT’S BEEN A LITTLE BIT DIMMER
FOR ME SINCE YOU’VE BEEN GONE.

THAT VOICE OF YOURS THAT WOULD SO
OFTEN COMFORT ME WHEN I WAS DOWN,
IT’S STILL HARD TO COMPREHEND THAT
YOU WON’T BE COMING AROUND.

OF COURSE I THINK OF YOU EVERYDAY,
IT’S NOT FAIR TO ME THAT YOU’RE NOT HERE.
WHAT I WOULDN’T GIVE TO SEE YOU,
AND TO HAVE NO MORE TEARS.

IT’S SO LONELY SOMETIMES HERE, MOMMA.
THERE ARE STILL DAYS THAT DRAG ON BY.
AND OF COURSE, I’LL STILL ALWAYS WONDER,
I’LL ALWAYS ASK THE LORD, “WHY?!”

I KNOW THAT THE LORD HAS YOU,
I KNOW WE’LL SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN.
BUT THAT DOESN’T HEAL THE PAIN OF
NOT HAVING YOU HERE TO HOLD MY HAND.

SO RIGHT NOW AS I REFLECT UPON
THAT BEAUTIFUL LIFE YOU HAD HERE…
I’LL BE THINKING OF ALL THE SWEET TIMES
AND I’LL GO ON KNOWING YOU’RE STILL NEAR.

J.N.S. FEBRUARY 7, 2009



6 comments:

Carmen said...

That is very beautiful...

I hope your day is as good as the LORD means it to be...

I miss her...

Rebecca said...

Oh, Jessica. That just made me cry. Seeing your mom's sweet face makes me sad. I wish she was still here. I'm so glad you shared your heart today. I love you.

Vix said...

Hugs...

Andrea said...

I just saw you are reading The Well Trained Mind, so am I!! What do you think? Miss you, I have been so busy trying to implement our new schedule and tweaking. Hang in there! :)

Frankie said...

What a lovely poem. It made me think of my mom who has been gone 15 1/2 years now.

(((hugs)))

liz said...

That was a very beautiful poem. I'm glad you are able to find a creative outlet for your pain. Praying for you.